I have been having a ton of back pain with this pregnancy. So much so that I have to either sleep on the couch or a maternity air mattress that I bought. Last week after seeing my chiropractor, I was feeling really well and decided to try sleeping in our bed again. WORST. DECISION. EVER. I was in so much pain the next day. I went and saw my chiropractor this morning and he said he could tell that I am having a lot of issues in my back and hips.
Recently, we have also be struggling with Olivia. The TERRIBLE THREES are a real thing... it is horrible. When I picked her up from daycare today, I was informed that she has been "in a mood" all day. Great! That is all that I could think. I just spent the last 5 days with her 24/7 and could not wait to have her go to school today. And here we go... another night of frustration, screaming, and crying. Thankfully Megan and our friend Jackie came by to visit.
After they left, it was an instant fight to get a diaper on and then Olivia informed me that she was hungry. I really considered putting her to bed without dinner, but I knew that she would wake up at 2am and be hungry. I
half-reluctantly gave in and gave her some food. While we were eating she started to try and sing. All I could hear were incomprehensible words and the word soul. Over and over. I was so confused. Then it hit me! She was singing, "Bless the Lord Oh my Soul, Oooh oh oh my Soul". <3 <3 My anger and frustration instantly went away. I remembered that at daycare they listen to Christian music in the background and that is where she must hear it frequently. I listen to the Christian station in the car and sometimes at home when we are cooking or cleaning. She was so excited when I went to YouTube and played the song for her, she said, "It's my favorite!". My heart melted.
Thank you Lord for the reminder that You are there and that I can let go of the anger and frustration.
I have to remember that there are more important things in life. I do not want Olivia to look back and remember me being cranky and angry all the time. I am thirty and a half weeks pregnant. We have about two and a half months left until Lincoln gets here! We are always talking about him, and I wonder if part of her acting out is because she knows that there are changes happening. I know that the cats start to go crazy when they know that something is up. If you have a moment, say a prayer for us as we make this transition and grow our family. I love Olivia so much and this transition will be just as hard for Mike and I when we have two wonderful children to love unconditionally.
