So many changes and all at once. I am sitting on my bed with Olivia next to me as she finally drifted off to sleep. You see, it had been a rough night getting her to bed. I know that some people will say, "9:45 and asleep? That is awesome! What do you mean rough!?!" Well, when your child has been going down at 6:30pm, and no matter what time she goes to bed she is up between 6 and 6:30am, but she has been waking up earlier than that, and she doesn't like to nap... it is rough for me. But there are a lot of other things that also make it rough. I was trying for three hours to get her to sleep. I tried just about everything-- minus a bath and a car ride... no bath because she just loves to play and no car ride because she dislikes her car seat and fought me when she was in it for the walk we took to try to get her to sleep.
Moving in itself is stressful. Throw on a bucket full of other stressers and I cannot figure out how i am still getting out of bed each morning. Here are some of my current problems:
1. Packing to move, which happens to be to the other side of the state.
2. My husband has been gone since the end of June and I feel so alone (even though I'm not because I have had so many people come to help me out. But it just isn't the same as having Mike here).
3. We hired my replacement at work and she starts Monday. So I am busy getting everything set up for her.
4. While I'm talking about work, not only am I working up until we move, and thought it, but I have to stay in Spokane and work another week once I am out of this place (yeah, I thought I could handle it).
5. Great grandma Nunes and great uncle Mark are in town to help me so Olivia had to vacate her room. So not only is she not in her room, but she is sleeping in her pack-in-play in my room, and everything is disappearing ands being put into boxes. But she is too young for me to explain that to.
6. I am not happy with who I am as a person these days and I find that I am letting myself come up with and use excuses to not do things. I am a complainer but I never used to let excuses get in my way. It is very discouraging.
7. We do not know where we are living yet
8. I do not have a job lined up yet :/
9. I stressed and overwhelmed and I know that Olivia can feel that. I just afraid that it is rubbing off on her.
10. Olivia is teething again (yay! 7 teeth now!)
My poor baby. I just want her to be able to sleep well. She is such a happy girl and LOVES to laugh. She is too smart for her own good these days :-) and fast!
Great grandma said it was a good day today. That made me feel better. I am glad that Olivia gets to spend so much time with great grandma and great uncle Mark.
Okay, cutest thing ever! We have been trying to teach Olivia sign language ands one of the signs is for milk. Well, for at least the last few weeks, she had been doing this thing where she stretches her arm out and rubs her fingers together. It is really cute but we couldn't figure out what she was doing. Then every time she would do it I would ask her if she wanted milk. She throws her head back and gets this adorable hoarse laugh and reaches for my chest. Ah ha! She is signing MILK! So the other night, I had nursed her and was bouncing her a little before putting her in her bed. They say that as you rock a baby to sleep to not make eye contact because it can give them a rush of adrenaline. So I was bouncing and had my face pointing to the ceiling. All of a sudden I feel these little fingers on my collar bone and then working their way up my neck as far as they could go while rubbing together. She wanted milk... :-) it was the cutest thing. One step at a time but she will be full in communicating in no time!
I want to give her the world and know that I need to work but I also don't want to leave her. With everything going on she is having some separation anxiety. Even when I'm home and someone is entertaining her, if I sneak off to use the restroom, she stops what she is doing, cries all the way down the hall, and bangs on the door until I open it. I love her so much! It really does break my heart to listen to her cry or to know that I played any part in causing her stress or anxiety. I just cannot wait until the three of us are together again and we can put this behind us.
Alright, now that I have gotten that off my chest and pumped, I'm going to go snuggle with my little one.
2. My husband has been gone since the end of June and I feel so alone (even though I'm not because I have had so many people come to help me out. But it just isn't the same as having Mike here).
3. We hired my replacement at work and she starts Monday. So I am busy getting everything set up for her.
4. While I'm talking about work, not only am I working up until we move, and thought it, but I have to stay in Spokane and work another week once I am out of this place (yeah, I thought I could handle it).
5. Great grandma Nunes and great uncle Mark are in town to help me so Olivia had to vacate her room. So not only is she not in her room, but she is sleeping in her pack-in-play in my room, and everything is disappearing ands being put into boxes. But she is too young for me to explain that to.
6. I am not happy with who I am as a person these days and I find that I am letting myself come up with and use excuses to not do things. I am a complainer but I never used to let excuses get in my way. It is very discouraging.
7. We do not know where we are living yet
8. I do not have a job lined up yet :/
9. I stressed and overwhelmed and I know that Olivia can feel that. I just afraid that it is rubbing off on her.
10. Olivia is teething again (yay! 7 teeth now!)
My poor baby. I just want her to be able to sleep well. She is such a happy girl and LOVES to laugh. She is too smart for her own good these days :-) and fast!
Great grandma said it was a good day today. That made me feel better. I am glad that Olivia gets to spend so much time with great grandma and great uncle Mark.
Okay, cutest thing ever! We have been trying to teach Olivia sign language ands one of the signs is for milk. Well, for at least the last few weeks, she had been doing this thing where she stretches her arm out and rubs her fingers together. It is really cute but we couldn't figure out what she was doing. Then every time she would do it I would ask her if she wanted milk. She throws her head back and gets this adorable hoarse laugh and reaches for my chest. Ah ha! She is signing MILK! So the other night, I had nursed her and was bouncing her a little before putting her in her bed. They say that as you rock a baby to sleep to not make eye contact because it can give them a rush of adrenaline. So I was bouncing and had my face pointing to the ceiling. All of a sudden I feel these little fingers on my collar bone and then working their way up my neck as far as they could go while rubbing together. She wanted milk... :-) it was the cutest thing. One step at a time but she will be full in communicating in no time!
I want to give her the world and know that I need to work but I also don't want to leave her. With everything going on she is having some separation anxiety. Even when I'm home and someone is entertaining her, if I sneak off to use the restroom, she stops what she is doing, cries all the way down the hall, and bangs on the door until I open it. I love her so much! It really does break my heart to listen to her cry or to know that I played any part in causing her stress or anxiety. I just cannot wait until the three of us are together again and we can put this behind us.
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| Olivia and great grandma on the IPAD |
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| Goofing off while drinking her bottle |
We took aunty Lauren to a place called Wonderland Golf and Games to do some mini golf. Olivia lasted about a hole and a half before I had to take her back upstairs while Lauren and Ben finish the game. So these next few pictures are what Olivia and I did while we waited. She rode on her first carousel! It only has three horses, but it counts! Haha! She also rode on a Tonka Truck. Olivia rode each of them about 3 or 4 times. The first picture is a dancing games. It has bright lights and loud music... yeah, not quite ready for that one :-)
Alright, now that I have gotten that off my chest and pumped, I'm going to go snuggle with my little one.
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