"Mammy?"
A couple weeks ago...
The sweetest and best sound to wake up to in the morning. I woke up to Olivia rustling around in her crib. I found myself trying to lay still in the hopes that she would fall back asleep. It was around 6:00 am. Then I heard it.... "Maaaaammy... Mammy, Mammy". Over and over. There were no tears or crying. She knew I was in the room, as her crib is at the end of my bed. I could not help but smile from ear to ear. I'm a mommy! Someone needs me! I laid there for a few more moments before jumping up to snatch her out of the crib. I was tired but it didn't matter. She was calling for me and I could not wait to hold her. What a joy she is to us! <3
This year for Mother's Day, Olivia and I will be in Spokane and will get to have a fabulous mother-daughter day. I am at the beginning of planning the day and hope that she is rested enough to enjoy it. I am ecstatic to add Mother's Day to my list of favorite holidays.
Today...
I have been eager to get Olivia weaned as it is tiring and she is getting big. Today is did not nurse before her nap or bed. We are going on a couple days with no nursing! However, I cannot help but give in in the middle of the night. Last night I found myself in a moment of panic at the thought that she may not be nursing much longer. I told my family I was going to nurse her until she is 5 if she wants to! (Okay, that is a little much). It is crazy to watch how quickly she grows. Every time we see someone after a week or more, they are amazed at how much she has grown. I am realizing that it is time to go shopping again for new clothes.
She has learned how to say, "poop!" And she will tell us when she thinks she has made it :) We may be getting close to potty training as well. It may be overboard but I would like the fancy potty that looks like an actual toilet. The "water tank" is just there to hold books. Annnnd Mike wants the $10 on Amazon. The debate is on... or maybe I'll just buy the one I want.
Two peas in a pod <3 <3
It has taken time but I am finally at a place where I am switching my mindset about parenthood. I am accepting that most days I am going to wake up tired, there will probably be 2 or 3 meltdowns a day, there will always be a pile of things from her diaper bag to pick up, bedtime will sometimes be a struggle, and like today there may be days when I am up in the middle of the night. Somehow I have found that I have more energy. I have found a way to make the most of days that I am up before her and nap time. We are getting out and taking walks, trying to explore the city. She definitely makes sure that the focus is on her. My schedule/priorities and Olivia are not always friends.
Each day I am working on balance, not only for me but for Olivia as well. I define myself first and foremost as a christian, a wife, and a mother. I feel that I use the excuse that I am a mom, have mommy brain, and will occasionally use Olivia herself as an excuse. What I need to try and remember as we continue down this road is that I am Alyson Atwater. I am my own person underneath it all. What are my passions? What are my interests? How do I want Olivia to describe me other than her mom? It is all a work in progress.
Olivia needs balance in her life too. TV time, nap time, outdoors vs indoors, learning new skills, working on vocabulary. I say outdoor vs indoor only because the poor thing is very white and burns easily.... definitely gets that from her daddy! I love you Mike :)
The sweetest and best sound to wake up to in the morning. I woke up to Olivia rustling around in her crib. I found myself trying to lay still in the hopes that she would fall back asleep. It was around 6:00 am. Then I heard it.... "Maaaaammy... Mammy, Mammy". Over and over. There were no tears or crying. She knew I was in the room, as her crib is at the end of my bed. I could not help but smile from ear to ear. I'm a mommy! Someone needs me! I laid there for a few more moments before jumping up to snatch her out of the crib. I was tired but it didn't matter. She was calling for me and I could not wait to hold her. What a joy she is to us! <3
This year for Mother's Day, Olivia and I will be in Spokane and will get to have a fabulous mother-daughter day. I am at the beginning of planning the day and hope that she is rested enough to enjoy it. I am ecstatic to add Mother's Day to my list of favorite holidays.
Creating a masterpiece and cleaning it up!
Today...
I have been eager to get Olivia weaned as it is tiring and she is getting big. Today is did not nurse before her nap or bed. We are going on a couple days with no nursing! However, I cannot help but give in in the middle of the night. Last night I found myself in a moment of panic at the thought that she may not be nursing much longer. I told my family I was going to nurse her until she is 5 if she wants to! (Okay, that is a little much). It is crazy to watch how quickly she grows. Every time we see someone after a week or more, they are amazed at how much she has grown. I am realizing that it is time to go shopping again for new clothes.
She has learned how to say, "poop!" And she will tell us when she thinks she has made it :) We may be getting close to potty training as well. It may be overboard but I would like the fancy potty that looks like an actual toilet. The "water tank" is just there to hold books. Annnnd Mike wants the $10 on Amazon. The debate is on... or maybe I'll just buy the one I want.
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| Making daddy run! |
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| Trying to take a nap, but the kitty was there! |
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| Drinking water and watching Nana cook dinner |
Balance.
Each day I am working on balance, not only for me but for Olivia as well. I define myself first and foremost as a christian, a wife, and a mother. I feel that I use the excuse that I am a mom, have mommy brain, and will occasionally use Olivia herself as an excuse. What I need to try and remember as we continue down this road is that I am Alyson Atwater. I am my own person underneath it all. What are my passions? What are my interests? How do I want Olivia to describe me other than her mom? It is all a work in progress.
Olivia needs balance in her life too. TV time, nap time, outdoors vs indoors, learning new skills, working on vocabulary. I say outdoor vs indoor only because the poor thing is very white and burns easily.... definitely gets that from her daddy! I love you Mike :)
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